four days left

it's funny how you'd think that the ones closest to you will be the ones helping you get through this, but they end up being the ones who are the least thoughtful and screw you up even more.

i just want to disappear for one day

one day, soon, i'll be gone. just for one day. i don't know if i'll be going to another state or to another country, i don't know how, and i don't know when. all i know is that i want to be by myself. maybe i'll go to the ocean again, and drown myself in its beauty. maybe literally.

haaa haaa haaa

the stress is eating me up alive

Middleground- Vermillion Lies

You always said that you would go

I thought that if I could just be better

You would stay

You just walked away

You're only good at leaving

And I can only stay

There's nowhere to meet in the middle

If you keep on walking away

You're only good at fighting

And I refuse to run